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She was bored. She started looking back at her previous journal posts. She realised how much she have changed because of him. She grew mature, she grew more forgiving, yet so much more complex at the same time. She never did remember what made her wrote all those negative posts in the pasts, but she remembers all the happy times with J.
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A long time ago, i used to have many nicknames of my boy. I called him Misuke when i first met him, then M, then Mimi-chan, then Mi-chan, then Mimisuke, to the current, J. I wonder why too, i tried to cover up his real name. Deep down, i still wonder why i stayed on even though i wrote i will let go so many times. I guess it's hard to let go of such a good catch. Someone so interesting till i never really got to understand him in depth even after 3 years.
I still have the box of things he gave me, stored at the bottom part of my shelf. Occasionally, i will still take it out and look at it, to remind me of the sweet things he did for me and the happier times. I should gladly accept that things cannot go back to how it was before, but enjoy the fun times we have now.
*opens forbidden box*
I don't keep all the movie stubs we watched together, but i do have a stack of it collected since the 2010s. I think the previous ones have all been thrown out last time. And the zoo tickets, i lost the pictures we took at the zoo when i was still fat fat. Some clothes he bought me previously were thrown out too. I guess i went too far the other time. If sorry could bring those back, i would say a thousand times. I also kept the sugarbunnies gachapon watch which you had one too.
Remember during my ITE days, i had an important text paper. J gave me a cat he sewn previously, saying it's a good luck charm from him. *laugh* It was a nice memory uh, and i passed too. Ah, the rilakkuma strap that we each have one. (Are you still keeping yours hanged on the psp?)
The last time i took out this box to look at its contents, i still remembered what J told me. It was after we broke up, yet he still wanted to be friends. It was a hard time for me, to keep being friends with someone i loved a lot, knowing that he didn't love me. He told me that i shouldn't look at these anymore. I started tearing up behind the screen. *laugh*
Oh, the AFA'08 ticket. We just met a few months ago that time, and he held my hand for the first time because he didn't want me lost. He bought a domo shirt and got me a domo poster, which i still have it on my wall. And i found a really old picture of me, when i am still chubby. I shall post on facebook. >_<
And the two sweetest thing he did for me, when he just went into army was two very mushy cards. Even now, i still smile like an idiot when i look at it. It's something that i never expected in my entire life to receive from him. I tell myself this time it is my turn to do something back, and not complaining about how badly he treats me when he doesn't!
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Okay, i need to sleep for church tomorrow. Goodnight people, oyasumi~~
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A long time ago, i used to have many nicknames of my boy. I called him Misuke when i first met him, then M, then Mimi-chan, then Mi-chan, then Mimisuke, to the current, J. I wonder why too, i tried to cover up his real name. Deep down, i still wonder why i stayed on even though i wrote i will let go so many times. I guess it's hard to let go of such a good catch. Someone so interesting till i never really got to understand him in depth even after 3 years.
I still have the box of things he gave me, stored at the bottom part of my shelf. Occasionally, i will still take it out and look at it, to remind me of the sweet things he did for me and the happier times. I should gladly accept that things cannot go back to how it was before, but enjoy the fun times we have now.
*opens forbidden box*
I don't keep all the movie stubs we watched together, but i do have a stack of it collected since the 2010s. I think the previous ones have all been thrown out last time. And the zoo tickets, i lost the pictures we took at the zoo when i was still fat fat. Some clothes he bought me previously were thrown out too. I guess i went too far the other time. If sorry could bring those back, i would say a thousand times. I also kept the sugarbunnies gachapon watch which you had one too.
Remember during my ITE days, i had an important text paper. J gave me a cat he sewn previously, saying it's a good luck charm from him. *laugh* It was a nice memory uh, and i passed too. Ah, the rilakkuma strap that we each have one. (Are you still keeping yours hanged on the psp?)
The last time i took out this box to look at its contents, i still remembered what J told me. It was after we broke up, yet he still wanted to be friends. It was a hard time for me, to keep being friends with someone i loved a lot, knowing that he didn't love me. He told me that i shouldn't look at these anymore. I started tearing up behind the screen. *laugh*
Oh, the AFA'08 ticket. We just met a few months ago that time, and he held my hand for the first time because he didn't want me lost. He bought a domo shirt and got me a domo poster, which i still have it on my wall. And i found a really old picture of me, when i am still chubby. I shall post on facebook. >_<
And the two sweetest thing he did for me, when he just went into army was two very mushy cards. Even now, i still smile like an idiot when i look at it. It's something that i never expected in my entire life to receive from him. I tell myself this time it is my turn to do something back, and not complaining about how badly he treats me when he doesn't!
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Okay, i need to sleep for church tomorrow. Goodnight people, oyasumi~~
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